Thursday, November 29, 2007

Tanggapan: LESSON

GF has left a new comment on your post "LESSON":

What happened to you ?? Kok sampe segitunya . . . .

Eiitt . . . tapi gw juga pernah kok ditusuk dari belakang sama orang-orang yang gw pikir teman dekat [hampir menjadi saudara malah], yang membuat gw terdampar di perusahaan sekarang where i am earning for living .

Tapi, trying to positive thinking aja, yang pasti gw yakin Allah SWT lagi siapin yang terbaik buat gw [ceile, klise banget ya].

OK pal, lain waktu disambung.

Adios.

Lastri Kimberly

P.S. : Kyaknya lo pantesan jadi a writer deh dibanding "Deplu Slave" , tulisannya bagus2 lho . . .[don't be "GR" please]...


Atas apa yang saya tuliskan kemudian mendapatkan tanggapan. Well, pada dasarnya pun saat ini hanya bisa berpasrah diri, tegar dan tetap tersenyum. Seburuk apa pun perasaan yang ada dalam hati, saya berusaha untuk tidak menjadi orang yang pendendam atau pun mengatakan supata yang dapat merugikan orang lain.

Well, Lastri, .. sekarang pun saya berusaha untuk berpikir positif. Saya percaya bahwasanya Tuhan punya rencana untuk setiap umat-Nya dan saya menganggap bahwa apa yang terjadi sekarang ini adalah merupakan proses pembelajaran hidup dan proses menuju kearah pemapanan hidup yang lebih baik. AMIN!.

Kekhilafan itu ada pada setiap orang dan mungkin ada kekhilafan yang terjadi pada saya sehingga ada orang yang merasa bahwa mereka telah dirugikan oleh saya.

Tapi satu hal saya percaya bahwa DIA selalu bersama saya .. mudah-mudahan semua akan berjalan dengan baik dan lancar seperti sedia kala .., ...

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

LESSON

Bahwasanya yaa .. baik sama orang belum tentu akan dibalas dengan kebaikan pula oleh orang itu ... bahwasanya yaa dunia ini penuh sekali dengan kemunafikan ... orang-orang yang ngakunya beriman, orang-orang yang ngakunya adalah hamba ALLAH, orang-orang yang ngakunya teman, orang-orang yang menganggap dirinya adalah manusia bijak ... ternyata dibalik semua itu masih ada kebusukan semata ...

Tentunya pernah dengar kan ... Karena NILA setitik rusak SUSU sebelanga ...

Sayang ... sayang .. sayang .. kalau saja mau berpikir tidak secara emosional, tidak secara marah dan manusiawi dan tidak egois ... semua bisa selesai dengan baik ...

Sudahlah .. I learnt my lesson ... satu pelajaran yang sangat mahal dan sangat sakit ...

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Kesal

Hanya gara-gara baca tentang gangster motor dan kekerasan orang-orang yang mengaku dirinya senior kepada junior di salah satu SMA di Jakarta ..

Maunya apa sich mereka itu ? ...

Friday, November 02, 2007

The Conversation

A conversation in the middle of the night

A : “You were great and I want to say one more time but with a present condition”
B : “What do you mean ? oh, do you want to do it one more time ?”
A : “If you don’t mind”
B : “But, I can’t and you know the reason why”
A : “Don’t worry about it. This time I do it for you from my heart.”

Then two people again spent the time together.

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Another conversation in the middle of the night

B : “I come here just want to tell you that I am leaving tomorrow morning”
A : “Hmm … just wait for me finish working. Wait for me at the end of the road”
B : “Okay”

An hour later

A : “Okay, let’s go, we have supper”
B : “Eh, hang on, we need to talk first”
A : “Just trust me. Okay, let’s go, we have supper”
B : “Okay”

During the supper

A : “What do you want to have ?”
B : “Anything. Hey! Is it okay for you ? aren’t you suppose to continue your work ?”
A : “Let it be. I don’t care. I just want to have supper with you. Can I ?”
B : “Okay”

After the supper

A : “Let me stay with you tonight.”
B : “Are you sure ? do you want to stay with me tonight ?”
A : “Just listen to me once.”
B : “Okay”

The night passed full with love, kiss, hugs, little jokes, tickling, laughing, tears …

Early morning

A : “This is it. Time to let you go.”
B : “I … “
A : “Don’t say anything, don’t even say thank you.”
B : *tears in eyes*

The kiss on the forehead …


*sigh*

Thursday, November 01, 2007

The Love

I always said that love is simple but yet complicated and now I think that I have been taken by my own statement.

Having a relationship is something that I long for but I guess by wishing to have a relatioship like the one in fairy tales, it's so far far away than a simple wish I have.

Cut the crap. The story is like this, once I am in love with someone, though it's not that deep on the first place but the conversation, the discussion, the story sharing, all things are perfect. At the beginning.

Later I found out that I was a third person in the relationship, called X, X has a special friend already. I was once committed to myself that I did not want to get in someone's relationship. Call it as a bad karma but I can't avoid it. I know it's a cheap excuse but that's the truth about love. It come when we least expected it and once we realized, we've been swimming in the lake full of flattery words, butterfly effect in the stomach.

I know that sooner or later the day will come that we, as a human being, being faced with a choice. I have choosen myself to be in the relationship and become a triangle circle of love and I tell you that it sucks!

Most of my friends told me that as a third person in the relationship, I could not expect anything, demand anything. Just be a good person, silence and accept the consequences.

The day has finally come when one day X called me and said that X would like to talk to me about something that I already know and sensed it that X would talk about our relationship. Indeed it was. X said that X should make a choice since that X could not living in two different world (as my world and X special friend's world is two way different). I kept silence though I know it is hard for me. Finally X said that X choose the special friend because of some particular reasons that I told X that I did not want to know. What did you expect if it's in a relationship, money has come to one of the reason ? ..

Taken what my friends said so then I kept silence, accept the decision X made and tried to go on with my life. I did and managed that very well, I guess.

Should I give up for love ? Should I not believe that there's no such love exist in this world ?

Being single is not bad at all, I guess, I, again, enjoy the freedom.